I Thought, Maybe...

I thought you are the only one who understand me,
I thought you are the only one who cares about how I feel,
I thought you are the only one who can stands all my stupid nonsense,
I thought you are the only one who bothers to entertain me when I'm bored,
I thought you are the only one who I can share all my secrets with,
I thought you are the only one who allow me to throw my temper at,
I thought you are the only one who is willing to share all your life-long experience with me,
I thought you are the only one who will stand by my side no matter what happens,
I thought you are the only one who shares the same thinking as me,
I thought you are the only one who will protect me from getting hurt,

But apparently I'm wrong all this while.

I just not as important to you as I think.

Maybe I should have realised it long ago, yet I just allow myself to induce in this stupid fantasy of myself.
Maybe I should have kept my birthday promise, yet I allow myself to commit the same stupid mistake again.
Maybe the person who wants to prove that she can be more capable than the others is not present at all. It's just a tough act in front of others.

The me today totally feel like breaking down and cry my heart out. Yet I still have to bring out the loud, crazy look no matter how hurt I'm feeling.

When will I be able to show others the real me. The mine who actually like to cry over small issues and can get touched over every single small little things. The mine which I thought that I only wanted to share with you...